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Tom Schecter's avatar

Goddamn, dude. This reminds me so much of my first couple of months after getting sober…slightly different context, sure, but the visceral discomfort and deep awkwardness feels so fucking familiar. Well done.

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James Worth's avatar

Thank you, Tom. That was the thing I most wanted to capture in this one, the weird feeling that your body becomes something totally foreign when you mistreat it for so long, that returning to it can truly feel so painful and unsettling. I’m so glad it came across.

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Tom Schecter's avatar

I was so lucky, in hindsight… good enough group of friends to bear with me for those first six months while I sat on the corner barstool chugging ice water… it was still a bastard, though.

Absolutely, it came across.

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P.K. Anthony's avatar

For real, this hit so close to home it could not possibly feel more accurate.

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Nick Winney's avatar

Un put downable in a scrolling kinda way.

team building games nights.... you nailed that!

Good work James! 👏👏👏👌

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James Worth's avatar

thank you very much, Nick, appreciate your kind words(:

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Nick Winney's avatar

love your writing James

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Sandolore Sykes's avatar

I loved this. I felt every second of it.

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troy adkins's avatar

i had this saved since it dropped and tom's review finally gave me the push. full homo this is great.

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James Worth's avatar

fullest possible homo, thank you troy<3

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molly's avatar

I've been reading your stuff for months and it, noticeably, keeps getting even better. Continue to write, do not stop working on it. it is visibly paying off

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James Worth's avatar

molly<3 <3 I needed to hear this, thank you very much.

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Will Boucher's avatar

this is so damn good

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Clancy Steadwell's avatar

sometimes we just have to feel something.

this is why i'll never go to one of those dumbass ace throwing places.

emil is write (right) this is a good one jw

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Emil Ottoman's avatar

Take your writing this seriously, always, in the future it will pay for your livelihood. How old are you? 23 I think you said at one point? Expect to hit your stride by the time you're 30-31, until then I'd suggest you keep writing in the vein you're headed and start seeking out indie lit mags, stack up some rejections for short stories and some pubs. And be sure you live as much life as possible because in the words Chuck Palahniuk wrote to me in correspondence "You're not going to look back from your deathbed and go, wow, I wish I had spent more time sitting at my desk writing." (Of course, this exact sentiment in a very roundabout way led me to being a criminal and going to prison, but the fault for it lies finally on my shoulders.)

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James Worth's avatar

I appreciate this very much, Emil. My writing is one of the few things I approach with an absolute air of seriousness, it means quite a bit to me, maybe even my whole entire life. (I'm 28 so I'm just going to pretend that means I'm hitting my stride in just a couple years, that sounds very good to me lol). I needed the encouragement to send my shit out too and not just keep it confined to substack so thank you for that push.

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Emil Ottoman's avatar

This is official unsolicited advice from The Editor.

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EJ Trask's avatar

there are so many gorgeous lines here but that sentence where you describe how he’s sitting on the stool has such a precise life and beauty to it. I will be thinking about that for a long time.

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Emil Ottoman's avatar

Send it. I was speed reading a bit because I have to today, but it looks pub ready. Out-fucking-standing.

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